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Snail-Arses like you, Rover 45, are the type who phone up drive-time radio.
Ninety years, I’ve been driving, without a single accident!
True, doubtless, but how many have you caused?
Sodding Christ, I touch 70 on this stretch most mornings.
Here you are, clogging it up, 35 miles-per-decade.
No wonder the Chinese vulturized Rover, if codgers like you made up
Oh at last, at last
, the Honey Hill straight.
Out I veer – dot-to-dot of cats’ eyes winds into the pre-dawn murk.
Refrigerated hedgerows, some bent trees, possible ice.
Must remember to turn back the clocks this weekend coming.
Oncoming headlights: caution warns me to drop back behind Snail-Arse.
Like a woman – specifically, like Prudence – being pleasured.
Oncoming headlights flash: a Ford Focus.
I’m shoulder to shoulder with Snail-Arse.
Gravel chips flying like bullets in Iraq.
Drive into the hedge,
the Ford Focus goes pale, or we all die
The Rover 45 is thinking how he’s been driving for ninety years and
possible moment, I’m round the Rover.
The Ford passes at the speed of a meteor, inches away.
Behind me, Snail-Arse indignantly beeps his froggy horn.
I slam mine harder, and keep it slammed.
Bobsleighing through the Kentish countryside.
Whenever I overtake with such a close-cropped safety margin, my thoughts go
back to Clive Pike late one day in 1984, or 1985.
Me, Clive Pike, and Gary Drake, at the foot of a disused quarry.
Gary Drake and me were Clive Pike’s own private bad influence.
Up to halfway, climbing the quarry was adventure playground stuff.
No-one wants to be the one to say, ‘Let’s go down.’
But then you find you’ve gone past a certain point.
Problem is, you can’t see your own footholds: only handholds.
The only route to safety is up: via sharper danger.
Higher up, thin grass came away in our fingers, like the hair of
Only the noise of stones skittering down one, two, three hundred feet.
Only the hum of evening in the Severn valley.
We didn’t speak: all of us were on our own.
If you look down, you’ll want to kill the fear by jumping.
Terminal velocity, a bag of blood and bone.
Then this reedy voice going, Guys
We grabbed his bony wrists as the ledge gave way.
Really, Clive Pike dangled, like in a film.
I was losing my purchase – he was about to take me down.
His face still visits me when dreams take a turn for the worse.
Drake had better traction, and, miraculously, pulled him up.
Us three never discussed it, and I’ve still never told anyone.
‘Prudence! Surely you’re not up before noon?’
‘I’m surely not. I’m watching BBC 24 hour news rolling shite, in bed.’
‘What’s going on in the big wide world?’
‘Some rather good effigies of Bush and Blair are being burnt
somewhere… sandy, with flies. An Italian journalist’s just been beheaded on
the Internet. Lucky I’ve got no appetite. The only decent livelihood to be had
in Baghdad these days is to kidnap a chalkie, then auction him off to whichever
group of deeply religious men will pay the highest price. Much like eBay, isn’t
it? I’ve decided, Mark, people watch the news for reassurance.’
My life may be stuck in the U-bend, but at least a suicide
bomber isn’t blowing
. At least
my home hasn’t been flattened by an
. At least the fields where
I live don’t look like Death Valley
reassurance. Anyway. Nuff o’that. I’m phoning because I’ve decided you
I’ve dropped back into its slipstream.
‘Oh yeah, sure, good idea, hang on, I’ll just phone my wife up right now
and tell her the news before I forget.’
‘I mean! It’d be… irreversible!’
‘Your marriage is dead. You say so yourself. What you and I have,
Mark, is not only alive, Mark. It’s… once-in-a-lifetime alive. What’s
Just this morning, in the wee small hours, I heard a voice.
It’s MY polar bear! It’s MY polar bear!
Amber could sleep through an aviation disaster.
Before I was even properly awake, I’d glided across the landing.
It’s okay Lily, Daddy’s here, it’s only a dream, look here’s your polar
bear, nobody’s going to take him away, Daddy won’t let them
Lily’s got me in a koala hug, legs tight round my waist.
Hair in my face, smelling of sheets in the sun.
Already she’s asleep: I clutch her for a clutch of minutes.
Her Angelina Ballerina nightlight makes the darkness pink.
‘Mark? I said, “What’s so complex?”’
Now is not the day to tell Prudence that I have a daughter.
‘Prudence, what’s brought this on all of a sudden? You’ve always…
despised the idea of “settling down”.’
‘Mark, even a bone-head like you must realize by now that I love you.’
‘I haven’t said that to anyone
since I screamed it at Simon le Bon at
Birmingham NEC when I was seventeen. Bastard never replied.’
‘And I’ve said I love you too.’ In the throes of passion. After the throes
of passion. In unguarded moments. In Leicester Square after a film.
‘… yes, but… Yes. But.’ Not monogamously. ‘Yes.’
‘That’s crystal clear, then. And her
? Your – ’ here Prudence injects an
unvoiced “so-called” – ‘wife?’
‘She’s rather more than “nothing to do with this”!’
her though… this is…’
‘You’re a spineless coward, Badbury. That’s why it’s my job to plant
the seed of the inevitable in your compost-filled skull, and nurture it. You’ll
A Teletubbyland sun appears in my rearview mirror.
Prudence is as hardbitten as she is sensuous: one of her well-known
installations is the word ‘love’ sculpted in soft wood and placed in a glass box
To my right, the Isle of Sheppey rises, just above the waters of the
Roland Taverner says the Isle of Sheppey is so inbred, the natives don’t
have noses or ears: just lumps and flaps, like they’re made of Blu-Tak.
Drove round the Isle of Sheppey, once, with my then-soon-to-be-ex-best
Caravan parks, a power station, industrial farms, rabbits.
It was in the Austin Metro my dad sold me.
Crappest car of the 1980s: its accelerator was a sort of brake.
Cramped interior: nearly broke my nose as I lost my virginity.
Mark, you realize by now that I love you.
How many times have Prudence and I exchanged fluids?
Which critical millilitre transmuted lust into love?
“Kiss a girl once,” observes Cliff Richard in Summer Holiday
cries. Kiss a girl twice, she wants to marry you.”
Too late now to regret ever having laid eyes on her.
by Prudence Hanson was a ‘chandelier’ made of
exactly 1001 used Tampons she had retrieved from the sanitary bins of
London’s public and semi-public toilets.
£10,010, thank you very much: a tenner a tampon.
Roland Taverner was huddled in an alcove with Saatchi.
This velveteen woman was standing an inch too close.
I recognized her from a private view at the Serpentine.
‘The artist should be shot,’ I said, meditating on the Shelob-sized tiswas
of thread, cotton and scabby menstrual blood suspended above us, ‘she isn’t
‘Congratulations. You’re the only male amongst these freeloaders,
sycophants and imitators who truly understands where I’m coming from.
I wanted Prudence Hanson. For starters, for dinner, for dessert, for
The spearmint west – all sixteen points of the compass – is spat-out gum-grey.
I’ve fantasized about it, idly, but never for long.
She papers over her insecurities with tiring sarcasm.
She only cleans her kitchen if she finds mouse shit.
And if Prudence isn’t having a good day, by God, nobody else can.
Mark, you realize by now that I love you
Opera hurts my ears like a chainsaw fight, but I’m having lunch with
Danny Lawlor whose mobile phone company is sponsoring the ENO, and who
already has one Gloria Sabir bronze in his HQ’s reception, and who might be in
the market for another, and Belching Christ, my current account needs a cheque
for twelve grand like a pregnant mosquito needs blood.
Lily didn’t exist – Fate, unprick those ears, I’m only speaking
hypothetically – I can’t afford to divorce my wife.
Forty thousand quid of her inheritance, Amber invested in the gallery,
five years back when the bank was forty-eight hours from foreclosing.
Will Prudence still want me to move in when she learns about Lily?
She’d never have gone on for a cocktail extravaganza with a man she
hardly knew after the private view, never have shown me her messy studio-flat-
space in Denmark Hill, unmade bed in the back, never, not if she’d heard the
Three lanes, three veins, pumping into London.
A rush-hour motorway is an act of unified worship.
This boy racer in his ten-year old Fiat – please – has sat on my arse
Boy Racer takes the bait – “Showed my ass to an Alfa Romeo today!” –
Pasty, puffy, agrarian heavy-metal fan from the Isle of Sheppey.
As he tries to overtake, I match his speed.
Let’s try it: Amber, I think we should get divorced
She’d check she heard right; go pale for thirty seconds; spew molten shit
for fifteen minutes; Is it another woman? Is it another woman?
; then I’d be out
Practicalities: I’d have to live in the flat in the Barbican.
Until Amber sold it off, out of spite, and repossessed my Spider.
recedent: Martin the Orthodontist, husband of Jasmine, the Gombrich clan’s
Martin shagged his receptionist just a few times: once actually on the
If Martin expected Christian forgiveness in return for his full and frank
confession, he was to be sadly disabused.
Martin lost custody of the two daughters; a clutch of wealthy clients; his
Canterbury town-house; 40% of his salary for the term of his natural life; then
had to move to cheaper premises in Margate, that clinger on Kent’s arse.
Quite right too!
stated Amber, studying my reaction.
Call me old-fashioned
, I agreed, but some things in this life are
sacrosanct. I mean, the man has children!
Boy Racer’s Fiat is starting to wobble alarmingly.
He slows to 75, to 70: I’m feeling vicious, so I slow too.
Then, joy of joys, oily smoke blats from his bonnet.
I undertake and swerve home to the fast lane.
In my mirror, I see Boy Racer floundering onto the hard-shoulder.
Fiats are only good for mowing the lawn.
But at least Boy Racer’s problems can be fixed by the AA and a few
Whatever I do, I mustn’t phone Roland Taverner.
‘So what crisis has blown up in your face today, Badbury?’
‘Why do you assume there’s a crisis?’
‘Bank threatening to sell you for glue, are they?’
‘Prudence called, about half an hour ago.’
‘And how,’ Taverner smacks his lips, ‘is that dusky maiden of the Slave
‘She’d flay you if she heard you speaking like that.’
‘She gave me a sort of… ultimatum. She wants me to leave Amber.’
Roland Taverner whistles. ‘Abort mission, Badbury. Pronto. She
hasn’t got your home number or address. Home-home, I mean. Has she?’
‘So she only knows your gallery… and your nest in the Barbican, right?’
‘I couldn’t very well hide those from her.’
‘Not the type to hire a detective to trail you back to Kent, is she?’
‘She can’t be trying to shake you for money… not with the sort of price-
work attracts… right, Badbury, here’s what you tell her. You tell her,
since she’s forced you to choose, so you choose your wife. She’ll go hysterical
on you, but women expect no more. Then you never contact her again
Change your phone numbers. Month from now, it’ll all be ancient, unpleasant
Reassurance that for every problem there’s a solution.
‘By the way, Badbury, how about lunch at the Starlight? That charming
place of my old mucker Jake, over in Bayswater. A certain celebrity chef – you
notice I name no names – known for his Mockney accent, raffish charm – not
unlike yours, now I think of it – and ability to sell recipe books by the container
shipload – is going to be there. He just fired his last agent, and I learnt via a
crony of his awful hag of wife that my name is being touted. If you’re with
me, it will look more like a chance encounter.’
‘Can’t. I’m meeting a certain Danny Lawlor for lunch.’
Vulgarian! Saw him on one of those awful reality things.
How to get Pornographically Wealthy by being a Total Shit
. Bragging about
‘Ah, but woo him right and he buys art like sweeties.’
‘But for the grace of God, goes God.’
Chatham and Gillingham slip behind my right flank.
Over the River Medway, urinary tract of Kent.
Amber Gombrich – of course you kept your maiden name – here is your
when we married, B+
nowadays, on better days.
Not for nothing her private schools and career at the National Trust.
Love? If gruff affection counts, our marriage isn’t loveless.
, with the aid of very plain au pairs, C-
Sex, for Amber, is a duty, like paying the Council Tax.
I am required to apply, some days in advance, via embarrassing hints.
‘There,’ she says, afterwards. ‘Better?’
Then she’s in the shower like she can’t wash me off her quick enough.
Back to Fanny Burney or Bleak House
I’m 36, women like me, my body has needs, and I have rights.
up and says, ‘I want you again.’
If Amber and I got divorced, yes, it would be messy. But.
Mark, you realize by now that I love you
It’d be a relief to kiss the gallery goodbye.
Losing my daughter, like Martin the Inept Monogamist lost his?
Become a weekend-custody dad, like those sadsacks at LegoLand,
First, steer me and my Spider, at 120mph, into the concrete pillar of a
Rochester started going downhill when the Romans pulled out.
It should be surgically extracted, like an appendix.
Those clouds over the black castle are looking mighty pissed off.
If cities and castles succumb to time – just another word for change,
now I think of it – what chance does the human heart have?
None: if you can live with all the alterations, your marriage survives.
If you can’t, or don’t wish to, it doesn’t.
Traffic clots as the M2 squeezes itself into the A2.
Still, a steady 70, not too bad for this time of the morning.
I perch on his arse until he gets the hint and drops a lane.
There is a drug for men, an anti-Viagra.
Its abuse is so widespread, so rampant, in castrated societies like ours,
that the junkies outnumber the non-addicted.
to be a junkie is verging on the criminal.
This drug’s trade name is MONOGAMY: a synthetic compound of
feminism, hypocrisy and political correctness.
Its ad agency churns out these catchy slogans.
Sex without love isn’t as fulfilling, because you don’t know each other
If sex isn’t fulfilling, Junkie, you’re doing it wrong.
The older you get, the tackier skirt-chasing becomes
“Chase”? The healthy, wealthy and wise never need to “chase”.
Men who can’t commit are such sad wankers
Oh? Well, without conducting a survey, my
junkies get through more boxes of tissues alone than my discreet clan do in
New housing estate going up on this hillside.
High density, tarmacked front for lower-insurance off-road parking.
Back garden too small to skin, let along swing, a cat.
Give it a decade, the whole South East will be one giant car-park.
money – Amber’s real money – can still buy hilltop
oast-house conversions in the green, green breasts of Kent.
Choking our motorways, the airports, the checkout lanes.
They are the Clive Pikes, the Gary Drakes, they are who we went to
‘Daddy, Mummy says you shouldn’t talk when you’re driving.’
‘I’ve got a special no-hands set. Where is
Four years old and my daughter can already use telephones!
‘No. Bad Boy Frank did it. Then he gave me the reseeder.’
‘Ah, so Bad Boy Frank’s to blame, is he?’
‘And how did Bad Boy Frank manage to use the phone, all by himself?’
‘Well, you press the noughts and crosses button, then the one called
“Mark… Car… Mob…” and then you
‘Daddy, why don’t spiders get stuck in their own webs?’
‘They have tiny special non-stick shoes.’
‘Here’s the truth. Spiders don’t get stuck in their own webs because not
all of the strings in the cobweb are sticky. Spiders know which are which.’
Prudence, I am afraid, is going to have a bad morning.
The veneer of calm has gone now: she knows what’s coming.
‘I want to talk about what you said in your last call.’
‘I didn’t think it would be about the cricket.’
‘Oh fuck it Mark, before you go on, there’s one more tiny detail. I was
‘Oh I don’t know what I was hoping.’
Suddenly I’m very worried without being sure why.
‘Well, Mark, it’s like this: you’re a daddy.’
to be a daddy. I’m due March 1st.’
How can the world go on exactly
the same as it was three seconds ago?
Same cars, in the same relative positions.
‘And… you know for sure… it’s… mine.’
‘Just because my work is about sex, that automatically means I put it
about? Is that what you mean
‘No, I didn’t mean that
! But… you’re on the pill, right?’
‘I am, and the pill is 99.9% safe, and welcome to nought point one.
That night I sicked up the raw steak.’
‘And it’s not just… your period’s late, or anything…’
‘I took a home test, the blue line said yes, so I went to the GP, and the
GP said yes, so I went to a private clinic and they did a scan and it showed our
baby who’s the size of a cashew nut and the woman, she was from Snowdonia
or somewhere Welsh I could barely understand a word, she asked me if I
wanted to keep the baby and I had to get her to repeat it and she did and I told
her of course I’m keeping my sodding baby you crazy Welsh bat, she’s already
the size of cashew nut and I’m calling her Hope because it’s a hopelessly
unfashionable name but it’s still what the world needs more of and I’m sorry I
didn’t mean to be rude! So the woman said we couldn’t be sure about if it’s a
boy or girl this early on and I… laughed and burst into tears and the woman got
Prudence will be curled up in a ball, on her stained sofa-bed.
Dreaming about a little girl who looks like us.
Believing that once I’ve got over the shock, I’ll slip out of my loveless
marriage like a worn-out dressing-gown, come to her, and we’ll buy a flat
overlooking a park, a mobile, a Moses basket, and an Angelina Ballerina
Turbulence at the confluence of the A2, the tributary A289, and the M2.
That uppity jerk-off at the dealership said he’d fixed it.
Ordinal sin of us English: we confuse service with servitude.
Normally, I’d enjoy phoning up and firing a rocket up his arse.
“Normally” has been suspended until further notice.
My unborn daughter, Hope, is growing, by long multiplication, inside
the uterus of a woman who isn’t Amber.
I want to tell it, Go back! Divide back down!
Clive Pike must remember the quarry-climb too.
And in Clive Pike’s nightmares, Mark Badbury is still a boy of fourteen.
Forever, just as he is in mine, as if we both died that evening.
Roland Taverner, drunk on port, at a lapdancing club in Putney full of
sullen Slavic waifs: Our childhoods, Badbury, are our Old Testaments
Books of Genesis, our Deuteronomies. It’s all written down there. And once
Well, Mark, it’s like this: you’re a daddy
Madmen, truckers and nervy learners coming at you from all angles.
Gravesend, Northfleet, Dartford Tunnel and M25 (Anticlockwise).
Back in the early 1980s, back when I was a boy, back when Great
Britain could win wars singlehandedly, back when Labour were commies and
Maggie was Maggie, this land was made of hamlets and towns and cities and
valleys and beacons and dales and national parks and rivers and tow-paths and
lochs and tarns and mudflats and tumuli and estuaries.
I no longer have a secretary to phone and tell I’ll be late.
Up on that rise: the last hillside of cows before London.
Down to 20, down to 15, sod it, I should park here and jog
to the gallery.
Two lanes merging, bad-temperedly, into one.
Knew it: big container truck on its side, tossed like a toy.
Here are the PC Plods, waving their batons.
‘Calm down, Mark. Of course Lily’s all right. Lenka just took her to
kindergarten. Am I only allowed to call my husband in the event of an
‘No! No.’ I nearly tell her about Lily’s phone call, but don’t. ‘It’s nice
to, uh, hear you. So… why am I a dark horse?’
‘Now don’t be cross, but a certain cat’s out of a certain bag…’
Not Prudence: Amber sounds playful, not apoplectic.
‘Well, your friend Prudence phoned twenty minutes ago.’
‘Prudence the Artist, you dope! And when the poor woman found out
that I didn’t know
and that the commission was a surprise
, she spent a whole
minute apologising – I could practically hear
her blushing – but I told her it’s
like you to arrange something like this behind my back without telling
‘ – but it doesn’t matter at all because… darling
… you’re amaz
portrait, by a real live artist! The whole idea makes me feel like, I don’t know,
one of the Medici Wives. I tried to call you straight away but your line was
busy so I’ve just been yacking with Coral – had to tell somebody
– and Coral’s
looked Prudence Hanson up on Google and she’s green
with envy! Her
installations sound pretty ‘way out’ but she can obviously do oils, too, not like
that Tracey Emin character. We should be tactful about telling Jasmine,
because of the Martin business. Anyway Coral says Prudence is quite
rising star in the YBA scene, but’s she’s ever
so down-to-earth on the phone.
I… I’ve never had a birthday present remotely
as… exciting! Oh, Mark, I’m so
thrilled! One sitting will be enough, Prudence says, as she takes dozens of
photographs and works from them. But then you’ll know all this. So Prudence
is coming on Sunday. She has friends just outside Canterbury she’ll visit the
night before, so we can make an early start. Darling?’
‘She said she’s coming to our house
‘That’s what she said you’d arranged…’
All I can muster is the consternation of the duped.
Amber hasn’t ‘darlinged’ me like this for many many
‘No, I’m… glad you’re… glad. Yeah… um, Sunday sounds good. Did
‘I mean, did you mention that we have a daughter?’
‘Why wouldn’t I have mentioned Lily?’
‘My idea was to have a portrait of just you – ’
‘What an abysmal idea! I
assumed you’d commissioned a family
portrait. That’s the understanding now, anyway. That’s what I’m having. I
! I’ll have to plan a dinner. Maybe I’ll do venison. No, steak.
No worse way for Prudence to learn about Lily.
First, she will have made a coffee fated to go cold.
Second, she will have calmly smashed something irreplaceable.
Next, she will go for a very long walk, with Lily’s half-sister snug in her
womb, until she has not an inkling of where she is.
Please let nothing bad happen to them
‘Uh… no idea. Don’t think so. Venison sounds great.’
‘You mustn’t be. I’m already
enjoying this gift. Honestly. I don’t
think I’ve been so… happy since… well, since Lily was born.’
‘Mark, are you sure you’re okay? You do sound odd.’
‘Just a dodgy throat. I’ll be fine.’
I wipe my mouth, and look at my once-young face in the dirty mirror.
Dirty great truck: EDDIE O’DRISCOLL HAULAGE.
Shiny little computer van: SOLUTION SOLUTIONS.
An Austin Metro with advanced venereal disease.
Drifting rain that never reaches the oily ground.
‘Service Station’? A Texaco, a peeling shop, sub-chicken nuggets
served by a boot-polish black kid whose badge says ‘Francois’ probably just
arrived clinging to the underside of the Eurostar, and the filthiest toilet this side
What did Prudence hope to achieve by visiting the oast-house?
And when she learnt about Lily, why didn’t she back out?
Perhaps she was too stunned to think of an excuse?
Fifty yards away, traffic roars by, to the Tower Bridge Roundabout.
On the slip-road, a shaggy hitch-hiker is holding out a sign.
Driving home from LegoLand, I told Lily how animals love motorway
verges: my darling little hobbit asked, Why?
Because people aren’t allowed there.
Is that where the unicorns all live?
Amber and I answered Yes
at the same moment, we laughed for a
moment and our eyes met, and I remembered why we got married.
Lily spent until Honey Hill looking for mythological animals.
Back in my Spider, I turn the key: she purrs.
Wipers on: first, second, out of this shit-hole, down the slip-road, third.
The hitch-hiker knows an Alfa Romeo is not going to pick him up.
Wet filthy coat: dry leather upholstery.
He glowers at my tinted windscreen to where he guesses – correctly –
Up ahead is pain, solid as the Thames Barrier, inescapable as debt.
The hitch-hiker may have more luck with Eddie O’Driscoll.
End of story
said Roland Taverner.
I tried to read your soggy sign, Hitch-hiker.
But your words had disappeared in the rain.
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